Blueprints
Sometimes I wish God gave everyone a blueprint for life when they were born. No, I don’t want every tiny detail planned out for me in advance. I enjoy the adventure of choosing my path and discovering what the future holds, but at the same time, I think a high level guide wouldn’t be such a bad thing.
You always hear people say that God has a plan for your life, that he is “birthing” something new and you just have to wait for it. The problem for me is that I want to know what the plan is right now. I’ve never been good at being patient and allowing others to do things for me. Maybe that’s what He’s trying to teach me, but it’s not an easy lesson to learn. It would make life so much easier if I simply had a blueprint to assure me that I was on the right path, making the right decisions, giving the correct answer to the plaguing questions in my life. Oh, what I wouldn’t give for an opportunity to have five minutes face-to-face with God to get a few quick answers!
Sure, you can pray about these things. I believe God can guide you to the correct decision, but sometimes I still question whether it’s God leading me down a certain path or my whether the decision has been sullied by my own personal desires and need for a quick answer. At times, it’s really difficult to distinguish between the two.
It’s certainly a struggle, and that’s where the blueprint would come in handy. Until then, I guess I just have to be patient…to wait on Him until I know the plan, until things become clear again. I hate waiting, but I heard from someone today that it’s a process — and we all know that processes take time. They can’t be rushed, and God won’t be rushed. He does things in His way in His own time. It may not make sense to me right now, but it does to Him.
Perhaps, in this case, it’s His way of telling me to slow down…stop…listen. I’m always moving so fast. I don’t want to wait for an answer. I’d rather figure it out myself and keep going, but the more I try to figure it out on my own, the more frustrated I become. I think it’s time for me to stop trying to figure it all out. It’s time to stop everything for a while and simply focus on Him.
I’m slowly learning to wait, learning to be patient, learning to trust….but there’s a sizeable part of me that still just wants to get a glimpse of the blueprint.
